If you live like me, in a world where no one cares, even your own family, you'll know what it feels like. The loneliness, the pain, the unbearable uselessness, the horrible gut wrenching knowledge that your not needed nor wanted. You've forgotten what sunshine looks like, what happiness feels like, you've even forgotten how to smile and laugh. Your just a shell. Nothing. There is no person. No soul. Just an empty body, wait, I forgot, you still have a brain, except it's pretty damn useless. It just keeps reminding you everything you already know, how utterly stupid and useless you are. It helps you think up ways to leave, none spark your fancy. Hanging, stab in the heart, slit your wrists, gun shot to the head, poison, even the painless death of carbon monoxid. The only thing that keeps you here is the knowledge that if you were gone too many people would be happy. And we don't want that now do we? I grew up in ignorance, but as many will tell you, ignorance is bliss. God how I wish I could just go back to that stupid innocent part of my life... but, I can't. None of us can. Now I'm stuck in a world where no one cares, where no one even looks at you. You are, in essence, dead.
Neutral 
Sta.sh
